Monday, January 6, 2014

New Year, New Perspective

Howdy all,
Ok, I have some repenting to do coming into the new year.  I am sorry.  I am sorry, I have really sucked at posting on this blog, or any other blog, I even suck at posting on facebook.  I have a new (I don't want to say goal here) ideal about posting blogs.  The way I look at it, You all have stuck by me through all the bad times and the really bad times, and I have appreciated it more that I can express.  I have not given you all the opportunity you deserve to share in the good times as well.  I can justify it away by saying this was a venting, therapeutic way for me to distress, and allow myself to feel better about not posting, but that is a little cheap, and you deserve better than that.  So for the next little while I will be posting a catch up of the last few months mingled with some current goings on.  Some funny, some serious.  So...... Here goes.....

At our last scan ..... wait I have to read what I already posted.......wow that was pretty vague, sorry.

At our last scan we crossed a threshold of goodness.  We have reached the point that a lot of the 'tenyearers' get to (keep in mind, I wasn't supposed to make it this long.)  With this we are really excited, for those of you who don't know it, I have a daily goal of "ten years from today."  That's all I ask.  But for once in what seems like a long time, this is totally doable.  I still have one active tumor in my right lung, but its small and is just hanging out not doing a whole lot.  Prior to this latest scan the magic treatment size was 9 mm.  With the stability and the size 7mmX9mm so 8mm we are now looking at a different treatment trigger.    (Insert drum roll here)  We now need to see a 20% growth in the tumor between scans to trigger treatment, or ( and here is the catch) any new tumors showing up.  Those two thing will trigger treatment, or the new tumors by themselves will be a trigger.  So for the time being, press forward. 

My shoulder is healing up nicely, I still have some soreness, but keep in mind I had my bicep cut off and reattached.  I am surprised my arm is still cooperating. 

Christmas has come and past, as well as new years.  I made a change this year, I normally don't do resolutions, but I thought this year is a good year to start one I can keep. 

I thought long and hard on this and wanted a broad, but specific resolution.  I also wanted one I could write and put up in different places that wouldn't draw too much attention.  So here it is, "To take control of the things I can control."  This simple phrase allows me to focus on simple decisions everyday and give myself the freedom of not setting goals that I will likely fail to complete. 

Thank you for your patience and I will try to update a lot more often that I have been. 
Merry Christmas and have a lovely day.
Andy.